Prescriptions, Prescriptions, WHAT? Another Prescription?

Ahhhh....the joys of BPD! This med, that med, no, this med...oh, yay, we finally found the right combination of meds...well, meds that work for your symptoms, because, in reality, there is NO medicine for BPD, just for the symptoms, but let's face it, the symptoms are a big trigger! Depression and anxiety, to name a couple! OMG! Here I am, 2 years after they have finally found the right combination that works, 2 years out of DBT, still going to therapy like a good girl ;) and all of a sudden, the anxiety gets worse, and I feel I just can't cope anymore. "Let's try to change things up a bit!" WONDERFUL! I know it's the right thing to do, because I know my body is used to the meds, but I am so scared of change, it is unbelievable. So, here I am, facing a new med change, weaning off my anxiety meds, when my anxiety is at it's fullest, and having to start a new one, which we don't know if it will work. And did I mention that going off meds NEVER goes well for me? Even my doctor commented how conservative the weaning process will be because my body reacts so poorly to going off meds! So, This is a big step for me. I just need to take a big breath and jump in and do it! Ready, set..........

So WHAT!

 I know I wrote this as a document, but I liked it and wanted to put it as my first entry in my blog.

So WHAT!





I have BPD! SO WHAT!! BIG DEAL! WHO CARES! That is what makes me unique. I like to be different..to stand out! That's why God gave me this challenge. He BELIEVES that I am strong enough to ENDURE everything that comes with BPD. And you know what? I AM!

You see...WE ALL ARE! Being diagnosed with BPD isn't the end of the world. It means that you are unique and unique is GOOD! Who wants to be the same as everyone else? I sure don't. Being the same is BORING! This is a GIFT, not a PUNISHMENT. A chance to look deep inside ourselves to see what's really in there...to see how strong we are...what we are really made of. He doesn't give us more than what we can handle. This is true. BPD isn't easy, I'll give you that. But we handle it, we deal with it, we survive it! Why? Because we ARE STRONG! We find a strength within ourselves that we didn't know we even had. And the best part...we have the strongest sense of empathy for other people than anyone else. We are able to provide support like nobody else and that, my friends, is the BEST GIFT EVER, because support is possibly the #1 factor that can help anybody who is suffering from ANY mental illness. So take this time to EMBRACE yourself and your BPD, not frown upon it, because....SO WHAT? ~Freedom~